Songs to make you think

So I asked my husband what I should write about today, and he said yards. I was like, ummm okay? I really can’t say I know a lot about yards. You have to mow them, rake them and so forth. I know ours is currently more brown than green, but that’s okay. Since I can’t really say I have much else to right about yards, I am going to write about music. I love music, and not just one kind of music. I am an eclectic kind of girl. Like my mp3 player goes from gospel, country to icp, ozzie and then to Miley Cyrus. I just love music, the beat, the sounds, the range in voices and instruments.

As a stay at home wife (soon to be mom), I know my job is more to keep the house clean and maintained, which I do. I know sometimes I do slack, but for the most part, I do well. As I am cleaning, organizing or whatever I am doing, I am always listening to music. One of the newer songs they have been playing on the radio I personally LOVE and am going to share it, and then tell you why it’s such a powerful song.

Kris Allen’s – Live Like We’re Dying

Sometimes we fall down and can’t get back up
We’re hiding behind skin that’s too tough
How come we don’t say I love you enough
Till it’s to late, it’s not too late

Our hearts are hungry for a food that won’t come
We could make a feast from these crumbs
And we’re all staring down the barrel of a gun
So if your life flashed before you
What would you wish you would’ve done

Yeah… gotta start
Lookin at the hand of the time we’ve been given here
This is all we got and we gotta start pickin it
Every second counts on a clock that’s tickin’
Gotta live like we’re dying

We only got
86 400 seconds in a day to
Turn it all around or throw it all away
We gotta tell ‘em that we love ‘em
While we got the chance to say
Gotta live like we’re dying

And if your plane fell out of the skies
Who would you call with your last goodbyes
Should be so careful who we live out our lives
So when we long for absolution
There’ll no one on the line

Yeah… gotta start
Lookin at the hand of the time we’ve been given here
This is all we got and we gotta start pickin it
Every second counts on a clock that’s tickin’
Gotta live like we’re dying

We only got
86 400 seconds in a day to
Turn it all around or throw it all away
We gotta tell ‘em that we love ‘em
While we got the chance to say
Gotta live like we’re dying

Like we’re dying oh – like we’re dying

We only got
86 400 seconds in a day to
Turn it all around or throw it all away
We gotta tell ‘em that we love ‘em
While we got the chance to say
Gotta live – like we’re dying

We never know a good thing till it’s gone
You never see a crash until it’s head on
All those people right when we’re dead wrong
You never know a good thing till it’s gone

Yeah… gotta start
Lookin at the hand of the time we’ve been given here
This is all we got and we gotta start livin it
Every second counts on a clock that’s tickin’
Gotta live like we’re dying

We only got
86 400 seconds in a day to
Turn it all around or throw it all away
We gotta tell ‘em that we love ‘em
While we got the chance to say
Gotta live like we’re dying

Like we’re dying oh – like we’re dying

We only got
86 400 seconds in a day to
Turn it all around or throw it all away
We gotta tell ‘em that we love ‘em
While we got the chance to say
Gotta live like we’re dying
Live like we’re dyin

Okay, so as I am listening to it right now. I am thinking about my life and everyone in it, and it makes me smile. In my opinion, I think this song is all about enjoying each moment and making the most of your life, because you really never know what is going to happen in it. “So if your life flashed before you, What would you wish you would’ve done”. That is probably one of my favorite parts of the song, because I always try to live by the motto of having no regrets in life. There was a time in my life that I thought I had done some horrible things, and had horrible things happen to me because of what I did, but then I met an amazing man (my hubby) and he made me realize that yes bad things have happened to me, and they are still going to, but it isn’t because of something I did or am going to do. It is all just how life plays out. So now you have 86,400 seconds (well maybe not that long as it’s in the afternoon) to do what you want to do today, so what are you going to do? I this part “ And if your plane fell out of the skies, Who would you call with your last goodbyes, Should be so careful who we live out our lives, So when we long for absolution, There’ll no one on the line” is just a big reminder of not burning bridges. It’s like the old saying, *Some people come into your life for a reason, a season, or a lifetime. When you know which it is, you will know what to do for that person.*

After having a wedding, buying a house, and now about to have a baby, I have truly learned who my lifetime friends are. I do have part-time friends (who I would say are my seasonal friends), and I will always be there for them if they ever need me, but I am more weary of them due to the fact I know they are only my friend if and when they need something. Oh well, I guess that is just part of how life goes.

Anyways, I think I am done for now. My cats are biting each other and annoying me, so til next time, live your life to the fullest!

What would you do?

As many of you know, I am currently pregnant. Most days I don’t eat more than I would if I wasn’t. The only think I have really noticed is I drink more, and I eat lighter meals with more snacks, which is a good thing. Today I don’t feel pregnant, but I know I am still in the early stages on it, and due to being overweight, it also takes more time for my body to show.

Last night my husband was asking me about if I had a miscarriage, how I would feel. I told him I wouldn’t be upset with anyone, because it is part of life, and obviously the man upstairs says it’s not the right time for us. I would be depressed for something because this little thing was growing inside of me, and is a part of my husband and I, and now just isn’t there, but it would be a part of life and we would deal.

I know a BIG reason that after blood work confirmed we were pregnant we told people (or I know I did) was because if we did have to do through that ordeal, I would want, and need to support from everyone and anyone I could get. I know most people wait til they are at the point I am now. Where your past the miscarriage stage, and just about to hit your 3rd month and 2nd trimester. I know I could have waited, but I didn’t want to incase we had any issues. I know I would rather people know early and be there to support me, than no one knowing and having to deal alone.

Speaking of where I am in my pregnancy, I have an appointment in like 10 days and this will be the first of two tests (consisting of blood work and ultrasound) to see about genetic defects. They test for a few different conditions. The one big one is to determine is the child carries the extra chromosomes to be affect by Down Syndrome, which is a condition that affects them in many ways and later on in life can lead to more diseases and illness if they make it to their adult life. The second big thing they test for is Spina Bifida which is problem where the spine hasn’t fused closed properly. There are two other things they check for, one being Cystic Fibrosis which occurs in 1 in 2,500 children born in the United States. CF causes lung, intestinal and pancreatic ailments, which results in numerous extensive hospital stays, and a shortened life expectancy.  The last thing they test for is Tay-Sachs, which is a devastating and untreatable neurological condition that leads to death in early childhood. They say that around 5 months old, the child will start to lose motor skills, then later develop seizures. Death normally occurs around 4 to 5 years of age.

So last night my husband and I were speaking on these tests I will be having done, and what it means for us. If we found out our child had any of these conditions, would be choose to keep it and know that unlike most children, we would either be responsible long after their 18th birthday, or lose them before their 6th birthday. Or would we go the route that neither of truly believe in, and abort and try again. I am not sure honestly what I would do if I had to pick today. I know I would need some time to think everything out, and talk to people, but it would be a hard choice either way. Like Mike my husband said, which one is worst? Aborting a baby now knowing it could die before their 6th birthday, or having a child with a condition that could and probably would tear our marriage apart and raising that child well past their 18th birthday. I don’t know what the right choice is, but I would love to hear your opinion on it.

feeding an army?

Well this evening, my hubby and I went over to my grandparents house for dinner and so hubby could help grandpa set up his new computer. I have to say for being 78, my grandfather actually knows more about computers and such than some 40 year olds.

I love my grandmother. She is a little Italian lady with a heart of gold. The only problem with her, is she OVER cooks by a lot. I will share with you tonight’s dinner. She had 4 pieces of chicken on the bone (big pieces), 4 baked potatoes, 4 pieces of corn on the cob, soup, salad, and a brocolli mixture, along with homemade bread. Now when I think about all the food, I think about having 6-8 people over to eat it. Mike and I normally share a piece of chicken, and I am not a big potato fan. Plus she made soup, my biggest weakness, and then she still thinks I need to eat one of each of the items she made. I think not

Don’t get me wrong, her food it amazing, but it is just so much food. After everyone was done eating, we still had 2 bowls of soup left, 2 pieces out 4 of chicken, 2 out of 4 of the bread, one corn on the cob left, 1 potato left and half the salad and brocolli mixture. Now I did take the soup home, and she also sent me home with homemade pizza, but that will be dinner probably Friday night.

Even though I am pregnant, I am not eating for 6. No wonder when people come down they always want to go to Grandmas for dinner. She makes incredible food, but if you go there once a week, you start to look like our Italian family                Oh well, it is all good.