Life
Where to start and where to end. Life is this weird thing that always is there, and at times you wish wasn’t because it gets too hard and becomes too much. Life is full of ups, and downs. Full of what ifs and whos not. Life is making mistakes, and jumping on for the ride. Life is truly what you make it, and sometimes what you make it is a living hell. Life is this magical thing, and one day, you wake up and realize your life has been wasted, and you have to start anew to get it back and make it the best.
I know I woke up the other morning and thought, what the hell have I done. I knew what the consequences would be that morning, and I got everything I deserved and more. I made a mistake, and I can’t take it back. I wish I could, but I can’t. Yes those old memories do make me smile and make me laugh. I had some good times in the past, and I also had some really horrible ones. My past is filled with heartache and pain, and that is not what I want to bring into my future, into yours, or into our childs. I want to be the happy you love and know. Yes I am going to have moments where I am sad, or down, but for so long now I haven’t been depressed because I have you in my life. I have been so happy, and so lucky to have you, and it’s such an amazing feeling to know that no matter what happens, or what I go thought, that I always have someone who will support me and tell me the truth, and I thank you for that.
I love you, I love you so much. You are my rock, you are my everything. I know we have had fights, and we are always going to. That is part of life, that is part of growing up, and it is a big part of relationships. Anyone who says the are married and they don’t fight, they are just lying to you and themselves. I am sorry for the mistake I made. I didn’t see that past moment, that past drawing in the little picture. The girl sitting alone half hearted. I seen it as the big picture. I seen it as the girl who can be independent, the girl who aims for the moon because even if she failed, she would be among the stars. I am sorry I hurt you. I am sorry it was mistaken. I just seen it as a symbol of who I used to be, and it bought back some memories, some good, and some bad, but mostly it made me see the girl in the photo for the amazing person she was, and still is deep down inside.
“…I never promised you a ray of light, I never promised there’d be sunshine everyday, I give you everything I have, the good, the bad… I always said that I would make mistakes, I’m only human, and that’s my saving grace, I fall as hard as I try, so don’t be blinded, see me as I really am, I have flaws and sometimes I even sin, so pull me from that pedestal, because I don’t belong up there…”